My past month of life has been like this: wake up, skip breakfast, go to work, come home, take a shower, watch Netflix, repeat. I work two jobs that leave me with one day off every three weeks or so, and I know that I am not alone. So many people in this world live exactly like I do, or at least close. It’s become normal to do the same tasks everyday in the same order and others expect us to be okay with that. Well I’m not.
I started this blog in August of this year hoping that it would give me a chance to write about something that I am sickeningly passionate about. Movies have been my creative outlet for me for as long as I can remember. When Twilight was the Alpha and the Omega, I was in middle school. As embarrassing as this is, I used to stay up late rereading Eclipse for my tenth time while acting out scenes with myself in my bedroom. Time went on and I grew out of that horrible stage and moved on to seeing real FILMS like Pulp Fiction and Fight Club and The Amazing Spiderman (okay well maybe not the last one, but to me that movie was Oscar material). I had dreams of becoming an actress, but being raised by some of the most realistic people I know, I got real jobs. That’s when writing reviews became a sort of compromise for me to satisfy my seemingly unrealistic ambitions.
About a month ago was when my frequency of posting dramatically decreased. Not only was I just not seeing as many movies due to my demanding schedule, but writing about the ones I did see just seemed like a waste of what little free time I did have. Life just drains you sometimes and the last thing that is in your queue of things to do is sit on a computer and ramble on about a movie that you sort of liked in a review that you’re sure that no one is going to read anyway. I feel like as life grows more tedious, it becomes harder to want to spice it up. Why fix what ain’t broke even if it’s leaking and duct taped together?
This post really isn’t about anything. I’m just in a strange hole of time in my life that I’m afraid I won’t ever be able to escape from. Thank you, and goodnight.